judge less, make more friends.

yuli was saying this guy in pharmacy was always lonely in first-year(you know how you sit by yourself in lectures ):) and they always teased him cause he was rather good-looking. When second-year came around he was one of the most popular.

Went to dental lecture....since week 3 or 4. and also because weeks8-10 were doh lecture-free.

The walk from australia fair kills my legs, really.

CRP group met briefly. I typed CRAP the first time haha!

Finished blue book, thank God!

About to sleep, only because of physical exertion today. Fine, mental exertion just now. Those developmental grooves are harddd.

Was so hot, dry, and there was a mild dust storm again.

Should I tutor that new girl? I mean there's only 2-3weeks left. She really should've asked earlier.

I want this semester to end.

Motivate me to learn anatomy and physiology. (I must've said this countless times)

Can't wait for Singapore.

Pyt, repeat after me. say na-na-nana......

Last night my mum tripped. The kind where your face hits the ground, and your hands and knees are severely grazed and bleeding. Not to mention the bruising.

reminds me of my accident-prone self in primary school. so funny really when we look back...

nasi lemak for dinner today (:

and exams are just in a couple of weeks. fabulous.

I'm still disappointed over saturday's clinic - the occlusal table that was "too deep". just tell me i don't have to be graded for wax carving again. I give up if you're going to be so picky.

Dear People from across the street,

Hello my dear friends who live across the street from me. I CAN HEAR YOU. I certainly can hear your wild little party going on, aaaaand it's been several hours since you started.

However, I have absolutely nothing against you, though I do have some burning questions and comments for the host:

1) How many people are there?

It sounds like 527 people!! How did you fit them all in without feeling claustrophobic? You must teach me!

2) What brand of sound system are you using?

I'm just about to buy a set too.

3) Your bass is annoying.

Ok this was more of a statement.

4) Why didn't you invite me?

Rhetorical.

Questions 5-7 are definitely not rhetorical.

5) Why didn't you invite my pet quail?

6) Why didn't you invite my pet mailbox?

7) Why didn't you invite my pet mango tree?

8) The next time you have a party, will you have better music choice?

9) Actually can I be the DJ at the next one? I promise I'll whip up some violin favourites, I know your pals can potentially be sophisticated like that. How about some of that Carmen fantasy? You can dance to it....it's a tango...

10) Who are you? I didn't know I had party-type people living across from my house, no offence.

11) Would you like to come over for tea one summer afternoon?

12) Have you been brushing your teeth?

13) ...and flossing them?

Because I'm almost certain you're offering some sort of junk food/alcohol that contributes to deteriorating oral health. Promise me you'll brush your teeth before you go to bed.

14) Did you know that certain glittery creatures, better known as Pretty Night Things That Bite, watch you sleep every night?

Oh don't worry. They're harmless. They just like to watch you sleep, that's all. How did I know? That's because I watch them watch you sleep every night too!

15) Lastly, just in case you didn't know, I'm positive the girl-next-door has a crush on you. She owns really expensive high-powered telescope, specially aimed at your bathroom window 24 hours, 7 days a week. There might also be a camera attached to the viewing end of it, which is connected to a computer, which is connected to the internet, and is on a certain webpage which name starts with 'Face' and ends with 'book'.

Well, that's just my theory really, although I highly recommend you confront that girl-next-door about it the next time you see her. You never know, the both of you might make a great couple!

N.B. This post was written under possible unstable mental conditions.

Am I an insomniac?

Seriously lacking ways to express myself recently. I beg your pardon.

oh, life!

Read Take Me There by Susane Colasanti last week. A depressing teen novel which just goes to show that life is miserable.

I'm miserable now. Not miserable as in sad but miserably bored.

driving lesson at 4.30pm later.

The house is just stone quiet. Except for the sounds of knife on the chopping board as mum's preparing the ingredients for dumplings. Noone is talking.

I just have to push myself to catch up with all the anatomy I procrastinated the past 2 weeks. Including the huge chunk of lab manual revision chapters.

We didn't end up going to the Riverfire as planned. Don't feel like talking about it.

Overall, the atmosphere at home is not pleasant. There are 2 extremes: 1) burst and be happy and talk a lot 2) curl up and sleep and pretend there's nothing to worry about

Not that anything is terribly bad. It's just one of those ...days.

Uni 8am-2pm tomorrow. Hope that will liven me up. (Sure...it usually doesn't...just makes me want to go home, and not want to go home at the same time because the train ride sucks)

uh oh

Will not be doing well in tomorrow's exams. At least there's the clinic to sort-of look forward too. Not even looking forward to the 9am-5.30pm schedule one bit.
I love procrastinating! ): Got some mid-semester resolutions to make after tomorrow...

some. things

1) GOT MY CREDITTTTTTT WOOOO. no time to blog about it now.

2) I didn't practice sautille yesterday. DIE JESSICA DIE.

3) I STILL haven't seriously memorised anatomy. DROP DEAD.

4) I'm following this new blog http://zacservesyouright.blogspot.com/ which is a story - continuation from Sparklife fiction contest. I'm intrigued.

5) The weather today makes me nostalgic. IT'S GETTING WARM!!!!! *does crazy dance*

7 Minutes

11:12pm and I don't feel like studying. Not that I've been studying the past few hours anyway.

11:12pm and I'd rather do many other things but study, though I know I have to.

11:13pm and thinking about tomorrow...another day at uni to tackle.

11:14pm and I still don't think I can sleep without at least studying a little now.

11:15pm and I'm thinking about how I scheduled every hour of this week.

11:16pm and I'm wondering if I should or will go to an 18th birthday next saturday.

11:17pm and I'm confused about my priorities.

11:18pm and I don't want to make the mistake, that same mistake I made for my piano AMUS. Not anymore, or I'll regret it so bad.

11:18pm and I don't know how to reassess my priorities...cello versus study. At least for this week it's difficult.

11:19pm and I've done 7minutes of revelling in my thoughts. Study now.

teach me to juggle

really really disappointed in myself right now.

struggling to juggle cello and college exams.

help.
i wrote myself a cello contract.
details later.

hurry up people!!

I'm getting really impatient for my credit application to be approved. because I COMPLETED ALL THE CONTENT AND YOU SHOULD JUST GIVE ME MY CREDIT SO I CAN DROP THE CHEMISTRY SUBJECT AND NOT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT GOING FOR LABS AND DOING THE EXAM WHICH IS 2 WEEKS!!!!!
I've already missed the lab in week3. It's currently the end of week 4. There's another lab in week 5. WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO. GO TO THE LABS? JUST GIVE ME THE CREDIT! and guess what THE EXAM IS IN WEEK 6. I DON'T WANT TO HAVE TO STUDY FOR THE EXAM IF I'LL GET THE CREDIT ANYWAY.

I speak as though I'm 100% confident I'll get the credit. I've completed all the requirements - so why not? I submitted the syllabuses for reassesment at least 3 weeks ago. I don't see why they haven't gotten back to me yet. Don't tell me there are lots of people applying for credit now too. this should've been finallised a long time ago!
I've paid the semester fees, including the chemistry subject because the due date is this sunday.

Same thing happened last time. I had to pay and then they refund. Too bad this time it's assessed by someone I don't know. And the credit person has "not much control" over his progress. MANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN.

dying of worry.

Hey! I was there!

Amanda's dad gave me a lift home today from qa. Passed by this bit at the bridge outside Indooroopilly train station...the traffic was slow because there were police cars, the fire brigade (lots of fire engines), crane, and ambulance all on stand at the narrow junction! Interesting to find out the story behind all that on Yahoo front-page news! Hope he's ok.

Crane used to lift man into ambulance
AAP
August 20, 2009, 6:52 pm

Emergency services used a crane to lift an obese man from his apartment on a Brisbane bridge.

The Walter Taylor Bridge, between Indooroopilly and Chelmer in Brisbane's west, has two towers that accommodate a number of residents.

One of the residents - a 57-year-old man reported to weigh around 300kg - called for an ambulance on Thursday afternoon.

He is believed to have suffered an asthma attack.

An emergency services spokeswoman said he was successfully lifted out of the apartment by crane at about 6pm (AEST) and taken to the Royal Brisbane Hospital.

The crane was parked at the side of the road to enable traffic to cross the bridge.

credits: Yahoo 7 news

Doubt

Loving Pascal's sketch.


Decided not to attend any lectures tomorrow. Primarily because the Dentistry lectures have not been very productive...and when I saw that the lecture notes for tomorrow were not new information, I decided to give it a miss. The morning anatomy lecture usually lasts 1.5hrs, so there's lots of time to be wasted if I travel to and fro just for that. So I'll just stay at home and revise for the mid-semester exams.

They're on next Saturday!
Have done the revision questions for Anatomy I but haven't revised properly.
Haven't done the revision questions nor revised for Anatomy II.
I better get started tomorrow. I will get started.

And I better keep up with the 1.5hrs of cello practice a day.

Tonight hasn't been very productive. For some reason I'm experiencing 0 motivation levels tonight. I'm feeling something's wrong with me as a person. I'm wondering who is really my friend at uni. I'm wondering if it's true that I'm not friendly but always think I am. I'm worried about how I will go in the mid-semester exams. I'm worried that I won't do well. I'm worried that I won't do as well as my competitive peers. I'm worried that I don't get a 6 or 7. I'm worried if I'll even get my credit application approved for chemistry. I hope I do. I'll have to study for the exam and go to labs at the very least if I don't, which isn't great at all. I'm wondering about a lot of self-centred things.


This is Mstislav Rostropovich's version of J.S. Bach's cello Suite 3: Prelude, which is one of my pieces. I like this version very much. I also like the way he plays, in general.

Your Library Books are Overdue!

After paying $16 worth of library book fines last tuesday (for sem 1 and 2 so far), I've already incurred a $4 fine from this overdue book this weekend. Just because I didn't renew before 5pm today, and when I'm trying to do so now at 9pm.......its considered overdue ):

I HATE 4-DAY LOANS. GIVE ME MY MONEY BACK.

Kind soul Rachel treated me to mocha the day I paid my fines last week.

studying for mid-sem exams scheduled in week 5. terrible. why so early! and lots to study too! At least I'm doing the revision questions and checking with Hantao next week.

So tired today....with the jam-packed saturday schedule.

Have to practice 1.5hrs of cello a day. not fun........need help with sautille.

placements, and MOZART WORKS!!

I'm looking for a practice where i can do my dental assisting placements. supposed to give practice's contact details to school by today, but i haven't found a place yet! hopefully all will be fine as long as i give those details to the school by the end of this week, since the admin person isn't around the entire week. fingers crossed that i can find one near to my house.

i think asian dentists would be more inclined to accept me. please, please, please.

i shall stop worrying (i'll try). going to practice cello...............................

by the way...

Newly discovered Mozart works played in Austria
Today, 12:50 pm

An Austrian pianist performed two newly discovered pieces by Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart for the first time in public on Sunday in a house where the master composer once lived.

Two newly discovered pieces of music by Mozart are seen in Salzburg Enlarge photo
The concerto movement and a prelude were originally judged by their archivist, the International Mozarteum Foundation, to be anonymous works. Further analysis determined they had been composed by Mozart when he was 7- or 8-years-old.
Both pieces were transcribed in the writing of Mozart's father Leopold but the analysis showed he must have done so from what his prodigy child was playing on a piano, the foundation's Mozart researcher Ulrich Leisinger told a news conference.
He said the young Mozart almost certainly asked his father to put the pieces to paper because he could not yet do musical notation, and later made his own corrections.
"This was a young composer running riot to show what he was capable of. The piece does contain real technical mistakes and clumsy moments that an old hand like Leopold Mozart would never have made," Leisinger said.
"Neither the compositional style nor hasty correction-ridden hand-writing are consistent with Leopold's authorship."
Both pieces were played by pianist Florian Birsak on Mozart's own piano in the Salzburg house where he lived for several years as a young man, and that is now a museum.
The International Mozarteum Foundation was founded as a non-profit organisation in 1880 to focus on the life and work of Mozart by holding concerts, running museums and promoting research regarding the composer.
Mozart was born in Salzburg in 1756 and died in Vienna in 1791 at the age of 35.
He began playing piano at an early age and was composing from the age of five, going on to write more than 600 works and becoming one of the most prolific and beloved classical composers.
This is not the first time in recent years that works by Mozart have resurfaced posthumously. Last year a library in Nantes, France, reported finding that a musical score that had been donated by a private collector at the end of the 19th century was a Mozart original rather than a copy as earlier thought.
(Writing by Mark Heinrich; Editing by Alison Williams)

Books & Movies

Lately, I've read Persuasion by Jane Austen (which was kind of disappointing, and Pride and Prejudice is definitely way better), After Dark by Haruki Murakami (great!!), It's Yr Life by (not bad), Hacking Harvard by Robin Wasserman (love this a lot! Really cool! Though I wish the narrative perspective was from Eric instead), and Ambition by Kate Brian (kind of creepy and disappointing, especially the ending, but its just 1 book in a series).

I've also watched Transformers 2 a while back, and Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince last friday. The former was a great, jam-packed action movie i love, with really impressive animation and the latter was pretty good, excepting the ending (because Dumbledore died, it's a solemn one...I half-expected the cast to be whizzing around on brooms before the credits rolled).

I might be going to be Tina's makeup model on Thursday.

I've also booked tickets to Taiwan and Singapore for end of year. This time only a few days in S'pore, because I'm planning to extend my stay in Taipei for a while to pick up new skills (possibly make up and composing pop music). Should be abroad for the whole of December.

Not sure about when cello exam's going to take place. Teacher said she'd request for an early Decemeber exam. The end of year exam period spans 2/11 - 6/12. Hope it all works out, since i have uni exams in 2nd and 3rd week of nov, and my air ticket has to have a departure between last week of nov and first week of dec.

Fingers crossed for credit application - chemistry sem 2 subject.

Enrolment

I have enrolled for semester 2 2009! Got all the classes I wanted except 1 anatomy lab. It's crazy, the enrolment appointment was 10am, and at 10am it took 5mins before my page could even load decently! The site is still so slow right now.

This semester I have classes on the whole of tues& wed, and sat afternoons(?!?!?!) And i also have classes on some mondays for 1hr, and some thursdays. Sigh.

But that means i can work on mondays and fridays at QA for term 3. Wheeee. and they happen to be 2 of the days that amanda is going there!

I haven't updated a lot of things....i know, i know!

Today is Justin's first day of school for term 3. The house is so quiet! Mum's overseas doing her teeth, in Taiwan at the moment and having lots and lots of fun i bet.

King of Pop, Rest in Peace

Im still exceedingly sad. I still can't believe it. I do feel lost. I've never felt like this, so deeply, before. But he IS the King of Pop. No doubt about that.

http://wvs.topleftpixel.com/09/06/28/

Good to know there are others affected and feeling the same, from whatever country. Doubt that it truly makes anyone feel better about it all though.

I won't say that Im a fan. I mean, there are so many others out there who have been supporting him throughout his life. Im just like a lot of the people, and feel guilty and bad that I didn't pay him all respects and attention while he was alive. I did like him. But took for granted that he'd always be there.

I've been listening to his CD Michael Jackson Number Ones that my brother got in 2003 in Singapore. The same time I bought Linkin Park's Meteora. Glad he got it. So glad.

Probably the Michael song that is most deeply embedded in my memory is Black or White, I remember that as a kid we had the Thriller LD and we played it on our LCD player. I can remember the MTV and song quite precisely. I also remember getting frightened by the zombies in the Thriller MTV.

Lastly, I think the media should stop producing nonsense speculations about his life. He has suffered a great deal under their hands. That's probably something that keeps making me sad.

However, I still jump at any news on TV, the internet...Something an old lady said that was caught on camera catches my attention. It was something like this:
"They say all these bad things about him (MJ). They said all these things about Jesus and yet he was perfect."

That he passed without being truly happy. I hope rehearsing for the London concerts did give him more happiness.

Michael Jackson, you are forever in our hearts. Rest in Peace.

Michael Jackson

Michael Jackson makes the world go round.
Without Michael Jackson,

the world stops spinning.


Michael, your a really, really special guy.

<3 MJ, the King of Pop.

Moving on....

I saw Rebekah today.
Got out of the house with dad today. He went to sort out some things, then I picked up lunch at Garden City food court. As I approached the KFC line I saw Rebekah. It took a while for her to register my face (as expected, my hair has changed a lot, and i got contacts just the other day). First thing she said was, "I haven't seen you in a loooooooong time!"
True. I hadn't seen her around since I transferred to QA at the end of Grade 10.
We chatted a little in the line, and found out that we're at the same university, just different campuses, and she'd got a day off from a busy week at work (toy sale, haha). Managed to grab each other's contact numbers before I had to grab McDonalds and rush off to work (QA), was really late today actually. It was 3pm when I finally got back to the car, and I reached school at about 3.30pm.

It made my day to bump into her. After all, she's the first friend I made on my first day of high school (Grade 9) in Australia. She'd come up to me while I was standing alone (quite petrified actually, and culture-shocked), and took me around to classes for the rest of the day...had lunch together, was introduced to her friends...
We were really good friends for quite a while (: Brings back the good times. Maybe we'll meet up during the holidays.

I didn't really keep in touch with my friends from Mansfield after I transferred. Don't know why, just not that strong a connection. I did meet up with some of them last year though, when a little barbeque changed venues to my verandah due to the bad weather. And even before that I remember going ice-skating with a couple of others. I guess I move on and adapt to new environments pretty quickly. It'll be good to organize something and relive those friendships this holidays though (:

Going to watch Transformers 2 tomorrow (: High school friends.

I miss my Singaporean friends you know (: That was my comfort zone.

holidays!

Right after Psychology exam:
Yulian: Jess, when're you 18?
Me: December
Yulian: *big big groan*
Me: why?
Yulian: I thought we could go clubbing during the holidays!

oh and
Dad swears when I get old all the fat from the junk food I eat will come back and make me a really, really fat old woman. He says its in my genes (my paternal grandmother is very overweight).

Have started planning where to go and who to meet for the holidays!